(relationships) pt 1

Aiight heres the deal school.... school has been the bane of my existence.... but that not what im here to talk about.... im here to talk about relationships.... mostly girls relationships.... i want you to read something a friend of mine wrote.... she wrote everything kinda blatantly  " So I have a problem. I'm attracted to the worst men on the face of the earth, I swear I am. They are the nerds (real nerds, not the guys in big glasses and skinny jeans, like study workaholic nerds) that will never have time for me and let me cheat on them and take any abuse from me whatsoever just so they can say they have me. They are the jocks, sworn enemy of the female race that is trying to screw anything that moves. The goons, trying to wife a girl that he doesn't even know her favorite color just because she knows 5 syllable words. They are the wannabes, they make themselves to be the guys making moves, I'm a pointguard when I'm really a water boy. smfh. But I have no doubt come across the worst... the womanizer. The passionate, creative, witty, unbelivably handsome guy that dares to be different and everything about his screams perfect. The guy that holds you and tells you that you're perfect...too bad he tells it to another girl in a few hours. I currently have one of those. It hurts because he's everything I've been waiting on, everything I want...and its a sham. A practiced monologue that he repeats over and over again.
The sad thing is as a theater major I can point him out from a mile away, tell myself that I need to distance myself from such a man...but the execution of the necessary steps never comes. I've been independent and don't want to be a hypocrite telling all my friends "You don't need those hoes." "Girl you can do bad by yourself"
But all the while I'm hopelessly intwined in the disingenuious, rehersed lines of a... mas fatal, if you will. He's fire and I love the thrill of playing with him. And though I tell myself not to be serious because he not, he wants me as a friend but I can't help getting attached little by little. Knowing that he won't change and that he's just another hoe but secretly in the back of my mind hoping that he'd change. Exhilirated and frightened at the same time by this feeling. Confused about if I'm scared of his act feeling so real or scared about the day that it'll all be over. Paranoid over whether he'll dissapoint me or give me a reason to hang on. Worried if I'm caring way to much while putting on my sly, playful, sexy side just to assure him that I'm not most girls, perhaps making him want to be with me.
It drives me wild. He's doing all he can to trip me and I'm doing all I can to keep from falling. Because when I hit the ground... I'm positive, it's gonna hurt..."

This was written by a good friend of mine.... she told me a little bit on why females open themselves up to be susceptible to loser guys...  I just dont get it.... its all a game to them in the beginning,  it pisses me off.... messin shit up for guys like me who actually care
no i dont see why yall put  up with it... it makes the female race look really stupid actually
i think yall dont think at all wen yall see somthing good u pass it up for fakeness
the glimmer which is nothing but gold paint no pureness of karat
so all the girls that look good that have their minds on straigt talked to a loser.... and now i have to go around telling them that im not like everyother guy that hurt them in the past.... so fuck everyother guys
i see them walkin around and i hope their faces spontaneusly combust
so ima have to try extra hard... but to no avail... cuz ill only be treated wrong cuz im not fake like everybody else
when i give the attention that they want they take advatage of it or they dont know what to do with it
but for someone who actually cares like myself....
fuckn  assholes they are
it makes me wonder... why they always allow it