Searching

When they look at me what do they see
Do they see one of their own
staring at them as if in a mirror
or do they see a monster
Intent on their own destruction
Trying to induce pain at every possible angle...
Do they see me trying to disguise my evil intent in the act of an angel
Or maybe they see me as their savior
A hero even
One to be there to rescue them when that evil monster attacks
One to stand by their side through danger
But will i end up causing more pain than i do good?
Did it ever occur to these people that i might be neither
I could be a voice on the wind
A leaf out of thousands of leaves
I could be a cloud in the sky ready to shed my tears at any given moment.
No.
Im that kid you see on that corner
lost with no where to go
looking in the eyes of others for that gleam of hope and acceptance
Where am I?
Im that lost little kid..... searching